Afraid of everyone.

well.

Positives: Crying and running home, I bumped into a random french guy called something like Jean-something. Who had a big coat and glasses. Who I immediately fell deeply in love with. Who likes John Lennon. Who has a spiderman poster. Who has perfect glasses and hair. Who has heard of J M G Le Clezio, even read some of him. So what I was hysterical and forced him to let me go to his room and drink tea without milk or sugar. So what I can't remember if I was awful. He was amazing.
And, the pub crawl was fun. Saw Jack of the curly red hair who was wearing a green hat and dancing like an elf. Why is he always in my life? Why can I never decide what he's thinking? Freekin drama students.


Negatives: Will's mad with me for mentioning about his girlfriend to anyone else. He didn't say it was private but I guess I should have known it was his news to tell. I was drunk and someone who has really personal conversations with him and has known him since he was six asked me how he was. 'Not so good.' 'why not? I thought his girlfriend came down?' 'Well, exactly. Don't think that panned out quite right.' 'Oh... I should call him.' 'Okay.' And then he's mad with me!
And, I am bruised and have huge marks on my neck and sobbed all over my flat mates. I don't know I don't know 'report him for rape' 'no he's south african'.

Fuck's sake.

THE NATIONAL. hide in them.

Had a bath. The ceiling seemed really far away. Bath's don't make me feel clean unless I have two of them. One to get grime off, one to get soap off. First rediculously hot. Second comfortable temperature, or just below it. The room is freaky coloured, made me feel like in The Yellow Wallpaper. Or like the scary woman in the bath in The Shining.

I wonder if Will hates me now.