worthiness

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7ukJiBZ8_4k&feature=related

only now do I fully understand my objections to objectivism, and at the same time, I now see the points I agree with in it. Freedom, huh. Destroying our edifices, please, go ahead. Challenge the concept of altruism, of course, I've never gone for the moral servitude, clearly. I hadn't even noticed that I could be responsible for others' happiness. I've never noticed anyone loving anyone above themself, thank god. I've not been overly conscious of a capacity for thinking in that way in myself, though. 'You love them for their values, their virtues'. Well, fuck, we're all screwed, the presenter's only good point. And if you think like that, if you have to expect yourself, and others to be perfect, then you'll end up dead. Which of us is deserving of anything? I hate that thought. It's easier to think, well, we're all the great unwashed, get over it. It's easier to think, maybe we fell down, maybe we're dirty, but wasn't it fun? It's easier to think, I can't expect myself to live up to all this, I'm not made for perfection, we're all just here for corruption. It's easier to try to get what you can out of life. It's easier to say, fuck it. The concept of perfection is materialistic anyway, the idea that one needs to be worthy doesn't tally with the idea of living for oneself. For me, it doesn't add up quite right, because there's still these ideals which might as well be gods.

Music for today - the whole of the album Boxer by The National.